Move forward in the direction of your dreams. Trust that the passion you have has been placed in your heart for a purpose. Some people will support you and other times, you will be walking the road alone. People will make promises, but they won't keep them. Just because they do not hold true to their word does not mean it's the end for you. You don't need people to bless you. God will use whatever, however he choses to do so. The blessings and favor come from the Lord. He will make a way when we do not see one. Your current circumstance is temporary.

I know all too well that when the darkness comes it feels so overwhelming and you just can't see a way out or believe that the light is coming. But know it is. Trust in the fact that in the past you have had similiar experiences and feelings, yet, He came thru. Focus on those. Focus on the promise keeper, the way maker. Keep your eyes fixed upon Jesus.

People are human. They are going to fail you. They are going to fail themselves. You may even feel at times like giving up. I know I have. More often then I would care to acknowledge. But with faith of a mustard seed I continue to believe and He has showed me. He showed me that that He sees me. He knows my heart. He knows just what I need. And just like the scriptures say, He works all things for my good.

I need that reminder now. I have had so many people make false promises to me. I have allowed my focus to go from the source to the resource leaving me feeling depleted, exhausted and defeated. But that is the enemy. He gets in our minds knowing that we seek: validation, acceptance, approval and LOVE. He provides this is temporary ways. We begin to rely on those ways vs THE WAY. Jesus said that He is the Way. He is the Truth He is the Life.

As I sit here typing these words, I am seeing I am in this place because I have put my faith in people. I have put my trust in people. I believed that people are going to provide, people are going to help, people are going to save me. But the truth is God will. Yes, He will use people, but He will choose who and how.

The current state I am in is going to take a Miracle to get me out of. I have seen Him work miracles in my life before, He will again. But if I'm honest... I'm scared. The fear at times is cripling. But I know that fear is a spirit. And NOT THE TRUTH. It comes with feelings. And those feelings are real, but they are NOT THE TRUTH.

Lord, I am sorry that I have doubted you. I am sorry that I put my faith in people. That I have allowed myself to become overwhelmed, depressed and defeated. Those are all lies of the enemy and I am exactly where he wants me to be. To feel seperate from you. To cause me to stop believing things are possible for me. That it is always going to be like this or worse yet.

Thank you Lord for using this disappointment to remind me that you will never give up on me. You have never left nor forsaken me. You love me and will never abandon me. No one has ever kept their promise to me. NO ONE. But you continue to show me time and time and time again, your words are TRUE. You are who you say you are, TRUTH.

Thank you for rescuing me from this mess and allowing me to use it to create a message to help others to FIND YOU. Seek and you will find. Knock and the door will open. Thank you Jesus. I will be living proof.