Have you ever though to yourself, "It's not supposed to be this way?"
You are in the middle of a storm with a relationship or something traumatic comes and HITS you hard. Knocking you senseless. Senselss meaning NUMB. You cannot seem to get your balance, everything is a BLUR, and you wonder how in the world did it get to this?
You saw the red flags but you always tried to find the silver lining and focus on the possibilities. Living in aspirations of what could be vs what is.
You tell yourself, this could really become something incredible; but repeatedly let down cause the other people involved do not share the same vision.
I've been going through something like that, that has been all consuming. Devestating to say the least. And all I keep saying to myself, "it's not supposed to be this way."
But what if God has different plans? Maybe the reason why things are not going the way you hoped for is because the other person is not willing to do the work. We all have freewill and at the end of the day it is up to each and everyone of us individually as to how we affect the collective.
Whether or not we believe it, does not change the fact that our activity or inactivity has an effect on others.
I have been trying to digest the most recent fallout in my life.
I'm an overachiever, a see it through, find the good, let's focus on the positive
I am not one to give up easily! I fight what I believe in and what I want.
Sometimes I fight, when I really need to surrender.
Surrender to what is and realize I'm not walking away but rather accepting reality.
Letting go of the fantasy. Which is a big deal for a storyteller. But it's time. Time to Drop the Curtain.