As I sit here, I ask myself, What's stopping you? The answer quickly came up in my spirit, YOU!
I said to myself, You are too busy doubting, overthinking, striving for perfection and the perfect time. Secretely waiting for permission and for someone to come along side me and tell me, "I believe in you - let's do this!"
But what if that's it. What if it's us who we are waiting for. Us to believe in ourselves and our dreams. What if all we need to do is JUST BELIEVE!
When I wanted to launch the yumbitz cookie company I was full of fear. Fear of what?... it was very difficult for me to pin point exactly what it was I was afraid of, then God revealed it to me.
Fear of Failure. I was reminded of all the times I tried before and failed. In particular, my marriage. (the first time) And here I am feeling like a failure in my marraige again, Round 2. (beating myself up saying you still can't get it right!) But then I heard Him say, "this time it will be different, because you will be doing it with me."
So I am going to do it, I am going to step out in faith again. Trusting that God has a plan and purpose and I am just to walk in it. When I opened up the cookie company I had NO idea what I was doing. I just followed the call on my heart and each day He brought me the people to connect with and the opportunities. All I needed to do was MOVE!
I'm going to follow my own directive and MOVE! MOVE MONICA! Move in the direction of your greatest desires and dare to dream again. Take Him at His word and deed. Trust that He will provide you with all you need - just have fun! What do you have to loose? You are at Rock Bottom again.
Last night at Beautiful, the women's bible study we talked about Jesus being our Rock. Our firm foundation - likened to that of Bedrock - SOLID
Jesus said that those who will inherit the Kingdom must be like little children. "Truly I tell you," he said, "unless you turn and become like little children, you will never enter the kingdom of heaven." That means we must have: Childlike Dependence, Child Like Trust, Child Like Humility, Childlike Surrender.
Life was meant to be enjoyed, not endured. He said He died so we could live.
Ever since Ruff got sick with his cancer and my marriage began to fall apart- I started to loose HOPE. It's been years since I gave myself permission to dream. I have been just surviving. And barely that. I've been trying to get myself out of the rut. I have been so depressed and overwhelmed with life and that is not how Jesus wanted it to be. It's me that's been punishing me. He invites us to come to him, "Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls." LORD KNOWS I NEED REST - I can't take this anymore, I can't do this on my own.
In one of my cries of desperation, I heard God ask me to go outside and take a picture of the house and show the before and after colors and tell the story of how I made a way for you when you had no way. He continued, all the while, I was restoring you and your vision. "Believe again. I got you!" "Take hold of my hand, lead the way and others will follow. They will see you making things happen, trusting me and all I have planned and they will grab their dream sacks to and pursue my call. I'm asking for all my children to "seek" my face. But they need someone to go first, and I pick you."
If He before you, who can be against you.
JUST BELIEVE! So that is what I am going to do. No matter where God leads I will follow for I KNOW His plans are for my good. Just like a little child, trusting their parents... I will too KNOW that He will care for me. I will step out again and start sharing the vision that God placed on my heart. Leading with curiousity - I wonder what he has instore for me.
We built yumbitz together and accomplished ALOT in a short period of time. I was proud of all that happened in 1 1/2yr time. He just wanted to me to have proof of concept and "others will see that it WAS ME! " It was God who opened the doors, He made a way, He put me on hearts of people that made my dreams come true. Dreams that He put in my heart.
When God asked me to put the cookies on the shelf and write our story, others began telling me that I was just giving up and I had failed. I began to question myself; did God talk to me? did he tell me to write our story - the book sales have not been very good (you're not a BEST SELLING AUTHOR ) I began to doubt myself and the call he put on my life. I started to wish it was something else - I had a friend ask me what would make yumbitz a success? Is it the money? What amount do you wish it sold for? I really did not care about the money - I just wanted to know I made a difference. That my life mattered "no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me".
